A day in the Life of Hypermania
This morning, I woke up with an incredible sense of well-being, a euphoria filled with happiness, reduced anxiety, and boundless energy. My mind was overflowing with ideas and plans—it felt like nothing in the world could stop me.
How does hypermania feel?
Throughout the day, my awareness and focus were heightened. I remembered every detail and worked with remarkable efficiency. Without much effort, I managed multiple projects and felt like my thoughts were racing ahead of everyone around me. It was like experiencing the runner’s high—a euphoric, almost addictive feeling of flow and accomplishment. My memory and thoughts were faster than anyone else with outstanding intellectual performance. Best feeling ever! Finally, so happy.
But as the hours passed, my thoughts became harder to control. I caught myself making impulsive decisions, taking on more responsibilities than I needed to, and stepping into roles without fully thinking through the bigger picture. While these decisions felt thrilling in the moment, and I was lost in a state of perfect flow, I began to sense the chaos beneath the surface.
“Pure joy, like I’m riding a wave of endless possibility.”
By the afternoon, I started feeling irritable and more easily frustrated. I grew impatient with those around me and found myself annoyed at small things, especially when others couldn’t match my pace or keep up with my ideas. My thoughts were racing so far ahead of everyone else’s that collaborating became almost impossible.
Looking back on the day, I can see the serious consequences of my hypomanic episode. I overcommitted my time and energy, made promises I’m not sure I can keep, and now I feel guilt creeping in as I realize the long-term impact my actions might have.
The tension I created extended into my relationships. My family, including my spouse and children, felt like they were walking on eggshells, trying to avoid triggering another episode. They also felt neglected, as my symptoms affected my ability to be present and emotionally available to them.
What is the back-side?
I also noticed how my impulsivity led me to behaviors I wouldn’t normally engage in. For example, I couldn’t resist the urge to shop online and bought things I didn’t need, spending money I couldn’t afford to lose. It felt satisfying in the moment, like I was rewarding myself, but now I’m left with regret as I calculate the consequences.
Another risk I faced was a surge in hypersexuality. It was like my impulses took control, driving me toward thoughts or actions that felt completely outside my usual self. I felt an almost compulsive need for attention or intimacy, which, in hindsight, could have put my relationships at risk. These behaviors weren’t truly reflective of who I am—they were part of how hypomania hijacked my judgment.
Inspirational
How it feels
On Fire – Listen Here
How Far will you go – Listen Here
Pause Before Acting– take a moment before spending or making impulsive decisions—breathe and reassess.
Set Boundaries: Limit access to finances and lean on trusted friends to help you stay grounded.
Channel Energy: Redirect into creativeness, art, or another fulfilling activity.
Stay Consistent with Meds: Maintain balance by sticking to your medication routine.
Acknowledge, Don’t Judge: Recognize impulsive feelings as part of the condition without self-blame.
Reach Out: Talk to someone you trust or a therapist to help navigate the intensity.
A Gentle Reminder to Myself
Wow. It feels amazing. I know right now everything feels extraordinary—the energy, the clarity, my mind is much faster than normal and anyone else. It’s like riding a wave of endless potential, where ideas flow faster than you can catch them, and nothing feels impossible. But … pause for a moment … Breathe.
This energy, though intoxicating, has a cost if it’s not managed. The joy and productivity I feel now might push me way too far—into choices you’ll regret or promises you can’t keep. I have been been here before, and I know how quickly the euphoria can turn into bad decisions, chaos, frustration, or exhaustion.
Remember, I don’t have to chase every idea or act on every impulse. The people who love me value your presence more than your performance. They want you to thrive, not burn out.
I can use it productively, if i keep a clear structure. So, be sure to stick to my routines, even when they feel too slow for my mind. Set limits. Check in with those I trust, especially when it’s hard to listen to advice. Take my medication—it’s the anchor that keeps me balanced, even when it feels like it’s dulling my spark.
I am more than this moment of energy, and I am strong enough to pause. Stability isn’t boring—it’s a gift that keeps me connected to the life I have worked so hard to build. Hence, I do deserve to be able to keep up with myself, and so do the people who care for me.
About Hypermania
Hypomania is a symptom of bipolar disorder and, if not managed, can lead to long-term negative consequences. It impacts my judgment, often pushing me toward risky behaviors, impulsive decisions, financial overspending, and even emotional betrayal. The runner’s high might feel exhilarating, but when it’s unchecked, it’s often followed by the crash—the wall of exhaustion, guilt, and regret.
MY-BIPOLAR 